Overwhelming need to clear some shit!

Wow today has been a completely overwhelming experience and we're not even half way through it yet! I'm not sure why this has come on right now but it hasn't been fun at all! There are times when I just need quiet and to be a lone in my garden or out in the countryside but I couldn't even get that today. The tv went off after watching Poldark that I had recorded and I put the radio on, went out in the garden with the dogs who were in a really boistrous mood today and won't lay down in the sun like they would usually. Then someone was banging, tinkering with their car over in the back lane and someone else began to mow their law, even the chickens next door were being extra noisy today. I was brought a herb tea and had hoped the noise would stop but alas no! Then having to tell someone that things only ever get done tomorrow, or next week or next month when it could quite easily happen right now as there is nothing else for them to be doing and maybe then the whatever would actually get done for once!

 Dogs up again being idiots...mower still going... banging still going...and excuses keep coming to I had a 'I want to be alone' moment and came back inside with my tea and shut the patio window. The radio too had to be turned off because it was grating on my every nerve...There are times, many times when I am not an easy person to live with. I know that and I make no excuses, I actually go so far as to claim that and take responsibility for it. I do have ultra sensitive senses, which can be really hard to deal with, put that with picking up peoples emotions and moods and everything else and yes I can be a bitch! But it's ok to be a bitch once in awhile, I mean I don't often fly off the handle like today but it does happen.
  I will calm down, I am calming down. I wanted to write, needed to write. It's been a couple of days as it's been busy around here, having my kids around, being in the garden and all that jazz. Maybe it's the fact that I haven't written for a couple of days that has me so edgy?...no, I'm not going to do that, I'm not going to make excuses for me being like this. It is part of who I am and I can't bottle it all up as I would eventually explode, venting is much needed once in awhile for everyones sake! lol

 Anyway, my breathing is slowing and I do feel a bit more calmer. I guess it's been brewing for a few days, overwhelming news, people posting about negative things on their facebook when all you want to do is escape all that crap for a short while...we see enough on the tv and hear it on the news without having to face it on facebook as well. If people want to read about that stuff then there is plenty of websites, newspapers, tv stations where they can do just that. When you're an empath, it's hard to get it all out of your head once you have seen it, even the smallest bit has me feeling like Im being bogged down in it all. We don't ever seem to get positive things on media much anymore, once in awhile maybe but not often. I remember when I was younger and here in the UK we had a news reader called Trevor McDonald who always ended the news program with a section called "And finally" where we would get some happy, funny, lovely piece of news to show us there is light out there, there is humanity, love and kindness in this world and not everything is lost. We don't get that any more and instead I think we are left at the end of the news in shock over what has been witnessed via words and pictures.

 We need some more good news, we need to know there is hope and I think many people have lost that hope. More and more people are being put on antidepressants or a bunch of other drugs to numb the pain of every day living.
  We don't even have much of a community now, not like we used to have. It's a bit better where I live in the countryside but people in towns and cities tend to be fairly transient, rentals are short term, people move on so no community is built. Where I live it's more the local houses get sold as second homes. The cottage out the back of where I live is a holiday home, the people who own it are only there for a day here and a day there, at max 5 days a year...5 days a years?! That is so wrong in so many ways. Local young families are priced out of the villages where they grew up because properties are going to rich people to have second homes, the community is suffering because how can you have a thriving community when half the village houses are empty a large chunk of the year. Again luckily it's not quite that bad here...yet and I hope it never will be but other places have become near ghost towns out of season.
  Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh it feels good to write all this out of my head, it only festers and makes life hard if I keep it all inside.
 The mower is still going, the banging has stopped and the dogs are mostly calmer now but the garden will have to wait until later when that damn mower has stopped!
 Peace out!
xx